Since January 1, 2013, my life felt like it was going in circles. I didn't really stop to think about it, just kept on going, like the Energizer Bunny. It got to a point where I stopped creating (while calling myself a creative), my marriage was starting to fall apart, and I forgot why I had become a photographer. As my struggles got deeper, I began to tip over...
I had to disconnect from everything and just pause (no emails, facebook, twitter, instagram, and phone) for a few days. It felt like I had pulled the emergency break at 100mph, but it was the first time I actually had clear thoughts in many months. As I rested and started to re-build my work and personal life, things came together.
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him" - 1 Cor 2:9.
This verse influences me to be the photographer I am. I started out wanting to capture the things that God wants to show me. However, for the past couple of months, I was just trying to build the "business" and forgot my core value.
God tells us to rest. My wife and I read the Psalm 127 together. In verse 2, it says "It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep." We had forgotten about Him, never looking back but keeping on forward, tired and aimlessly.
We spent the past weekend with the intention of looking back at 2012 and looking forward to 2013, to rest. It was one of the most memorable things we did. It was amazing to see how much good there was in the midst of all of the bad during the last 12 months and to set goals for what we can do to make the next 12 months better.
Try it yourself and see where it takes you. Take a weekend and invest in yourself. Disconnect from the world and pause...
It's ok to stop sometimes.